The Lord spoke to me greatly through this verse and I wanted to share it because I know in my home town with my fellow believers most do not live this way. I do not have to question where God's power has gone because this tells me everything I need to know.
Acts 4:32-35
32: All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of his possessions was his own, but they shared everything they had.
33: With great power the apostles continued to testify to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus, and much grace was upon them all. (I would like to comment in here what the Lord showed me, it is because they shared all with each other and all had one heart and mind for Jesus they have POWER, Do you think our selfishness has caused Gods power to leave the church?? You bet it has, this is one of the reasons the power and anointing is gone)
34:There was no needy persons among them. For from time to time those who owned lands or houses sold them, brought the money from the sales 35: and put it at the apostles feet, and it was distributed to anyone as he had need.
So selfishness has robbed us of our power, love of oneself more than others. God told me months ago when I asked him What can I do Lord to get more power and anointing?? he said "Be a Radical Giver." Here is the proof in Gods word that if you give and take care of others in need you will have more grace and power.
Father I pray that anyone who reads this is pierces their heart and spirit and revelation is revealed that to serve you with great power and anointing that we need to be selfless and help others in need, not only believers but unbelievers as well. Touch each persons life who reads this blog to have a deeper relationship with you, to come to see your face as Moses did on the mountain, to know the real Jesus and not just know about Jesus.
In Jesus Name!!! Amen!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Dec 28, 2011
I had an interesting day but felt it was more progress in my adventure with God. Had a normal morning with my client but on my way home I had an encounter or instruction from the Spirit I wasn't expecting. I stopped to get some coffee and as I enter the freeway to continue my way home, I notice a man standing on the corner with a sign that says please help. So just glancing I continue to drive on. Instantly and as loud as it can be I heard the Spirit say you spent your day doing your work and now its time to do mine. So I check my purse and I have no money so I think okay I will find a bank. So as I am looking for a bank I hear
"Silver or gold I do not have, but what I have I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk."
- Acts 3:6
What dont give him money? LOL I laugh thinking about it cause that's how I think! So then what do I give him? You pray for him and give him Jesus. How simple the basic good news and I'm perplexed by it. What if I where to offend him? What if people saw? Heard the Spirit say did Jesus care what people thought? He walked into a place and said Repent for the kingdom of heaven is near, He walked into a temple and threw over the tables when they have turned it into a market. Peter went in Acts 4:3 and said "Look at us!".
Why is it today you are afraid of being offensive? God was offensive to the Pharisees with Jesus, they thought he was using the power of the devil. They did not recognize him and its pretty safe to assume they will not recognize us either or they will mistake us for evil. Satan has set it up nicely that even those who do believe tend to become offended when things happen that makes them uncomfortable. So this was not the first time God had caused my stomach to turn and I have gotten pretty good at recognizing that. So I turn around go back and pull up next to him. Get out of the car and pray for him. Now I have never done this before and honestly I am not sure if my praying was correct or but I did what I knew God wanted me to do. The man rushed back to his corner to collect more money. I felt dumb, did I say the right thing? Did anything happen? was his life even touched? So I quickly removed those thoughts because I have noticed they lead to disappointment and that's not God. We do not always see what he is doing and that's part of the mystery. I was being obedient and I knew it was a training tool for me to break out of my shell.
So on my way I go and I get off the freeway to head home and I see another homeless man sitting there with his bike. I have seen this man before and always stop to give him money. Today I had no money so I just drove by again I heard the Spirit say why didn't you stop and pray for him? I again started to reason with myself when I really felt the Lord say you are hungry and didn't eat lunch why don't you each lunch with him? So again I turn around being obedient this time I am excited not as uncomfortable as the time before so I stop and he knows who I am because I have stopped and given him money before. I asked if he was hungry and he said yes, I said okay I will bring us some lunch what do you want? He was really bewildered by me offering to eat lunch with him but he said a salad (I had to laugh that was his request of all the things you want a salad okay because I get it all the time I do not see its value but it made me smile). Went to Dennys and brought it back and sat there eating lunch and talking with him. He said he believed Jesus was Lord but as he kept talking it got stranger and stranger, now I am used to God surprising me but this guy wasn't right and the feeling I had was not good. He said he knew I was a child of God he could see his light shining on me and no one ever talks to him they just pass by. I ate some lunch listened to his stories and said it was time to go, he wasn't happy I was leaving but I knew he had something on him I did not want, it was a very dark spirit and while I am fine to sit and talk with people, in the desert, by myself ummm not going to sit around with this feeling. I really felt the Spirit tell me to hold onto that feeling, remember what it felt like to be near him. Again another training experience that actually lead me even closer to God, it gave me questions that only he could answer.
"Silver or gold I do not have, but what I have I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk."
- Acts 3:6
What dont give him money? LOL I laugh thinking about it cause that's how I think! So then what do I give him? You pray for him and give him Jesus. How simple the basic good news and I'm perplexed by it. What if I where to offend him? What if people saw? Heard the Spirit say did Jesus care what people thought? He walked into a place and said Repent for the kingdom of heaven is near, He walked into a temple and threw over the tables when they have turned it into a market. Peter went in Acts 4:3 and said "Look at us!".
Why is it today you are afraid of being offensive? God was offensive to the Pharisees with Jesus, they thought he was using the power of the devil. They did not recognize him and its pretty safe to assume they will not recognize us either or they will mistake us for evil. Satan has set it up nicely that even those who do believe tend to become offended when things happen that makes them uncomfortable. So this was not the first time God had caused my stomach to turn and I have gotten pretty good at recognizing that. So I turn around go back and pull up next to him. Get out of the car and pray for him. Now I have never done this before and honestly I am not sure if my praying was correct or but I did what I knew God wanted me to do. The man rushed back to his corner to collect more money. I felt dumb, did I say the right thing? Did anything happen? was his life even touched? So I quickly removed those thoughts because I have noticed they lead to disappointment and that's not God. We do not always see what he is doing and that's part of the mystery. I was being obedient and I knew it was a training tool for me to break out of my shell.
So on my way I go and I get off the freeway to head home and I see another homeless man sitting there with his bike. I have seen this man before and always stop to give him money. Today I had no money so I just drove by again I heard the Spirit say why didn't you stop and pray for him? I again started to reason with myself when I really felt the Lord say you are hungry and didn't eat lunch why don't you each lunch with him? So again I turn around being obedient this time I am excited not as uncomfortable as the time before so I stop and he knows who I am because I have stopped and given him money before. I asked if he was hungry and he said yes, I said okay I will bring us some lunch what do you want? He was really bewildered by me offering to eat lunch with him but he said a salad (I had to laugh that was his request of all the things you want a salad okay because I get it all the time I do not see its value but it made me smile). Went to Dennys and brought it back and sat there eating lunch and talking with him. He said he believed Jesus was Lord but as he kept talking it got stranger and stranger, now I am used to God surprising me but this guy wasn't right and the feeling I had was not good. He said he knew I was a child of God he could see his light shining on me and no one ever talks to him they just pass by. I ate some lunch listened to his stories and said it was time to go, he wasn't happy I was leaving but I knew he had something on him I did not want, it was a very dark spirit and while I am fine to sit and talk with people, in the desert, by myself ummm not going to sit around with this feeling. I really felt the Spirit tell me to hold onto that feeling, remember what it felt like to be near him. Again another training experience that actually lead me even closer to God, it gave me questions that only he could answer.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Dec 25, 2011 Christmas Day
I was woken up really early (not a morning person at all) by my husband waking up the kids. I wasn't happy they where sound asleep. I was instantly mad and of course throwing a fit. I was okay with them waking me up to find santa had come but dad waking everyone up ummmm not what I wanted. So starting the day out bad means its going to be hard to shake this off. Irritation in the morning is the devil making a bid for my mind in hopes that my day will be ruined. Well I wish I could say I didn't fall into that temptation but I did. Tumbled over into that pit and didn't come out of it.
So the devil throws me a pity party and I attended with my pity party hat on. I didn't enjoy opening presents or watching the kids open them and all my presents well of course I took them all personal and wasn't happy. I could see this day was going to be fun. Now onto the struggle to take back what I had given away.
Makes me go back to where the battle originally started, God made man in his image, gave them complete dominion over all the earth and everything in it. Well one little questioning by the devil and they handed their authority over to satan and falled into sin. We are presented daily with ways to question God and a trap set before us so we are constantly faced with giving our authority back over to satan.
Genesis 3:1-6
1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, "Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?" 2 The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, 3 but God did say, 'You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.' " 4 "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. 5 "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil." 6 When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it.
My authority (which was given back to me through Jesus Christ our savior) was now handed back to satan and my challenge was how do I get it back? I felt soooo sad crying uncontrollably at times and helpless. But was I helpless?? I believed I was. I really felt the Lord telling me he was pruning me. I had been making some good progress in my adventure with him and he always rewards progress with more pruning. God wants us to be able to handle his blessings but before that happens you must lose more of yourself and we all know that sucks cause it hurts. So I am not going to let this ruin my Xmas but now I am faced with this confusion (confusion is so not of God) is God pruning me? or is satan just tormenting me? So the pity party went on all day and I was a mess. I tend to clean during my pity parties while everyone else is having fun, I guess I think everyone else in the house should be as miserable as I am. So cleaning went on all day! (Probably should mention I own my own business and work a lot so down time is important and cleaning is not down town lol)
Finally I took a shower and decided its time to take back control, I was determined to have a better night. I get out of the shower feeling refreshed only to find myself vacuuming a few minutes later. I hear the Spirit say "haven't you vacuumed 3 times today?" Texting one of my christian friends he starts to share some of his insight from his personal experiences. Him and I are a lot alike and hes been on his adventure with God longer than I have so he is definitely a divine person in my life God uses to help me out. So of course he starts talking about doing too much and how down time is needed. Ummmm wow thanks Lord you just asked me about vacuuming for the 3rd time so this is really for me! I had worn myself out and had not stopped at all. I seem to be always working and have a hard time even stopping cause there is so much more to do. But isn't there always something to do? Don't we have to make the decision to actually say No to something and sit and relax? I had been given choices many days before only to continue to get busier and busier doing waaaay too much. Thinking about it God had warned me before and this is the result I have from not listening. Because I was tired I threw a fit when I was woken up then a pity party feeling sorry for myself only to clean believing the lies that it couldn't be done later making myself more tired and trying to make everyone else feel bad for me ruining their day. I was jealous they where having fun and not miserable with me. But the sad thing was I know I hurt my husbands feelings because I really bashed all the gifts he got me. So now I feel bad because in the end I did end up making them all feel bad for me making their day worse. See the chain reaction?? Luckily by His grace I am forgiven and I can move onto another day.
Woke up the next day (slept in on a Monday that's right finally took the Lords advice to rest) spoke to my lovely friend who tells me something he heard that morning. The preacher says his daughter has a headache, she tells him she believes God has healed her headache but it still hurts. Dad says well which reality do you believe more? Do you believe God healed you even if it still hurts?
So to me this speaks volumes because God always tells me do you believe me or him? You cannot believe both. So she believed she was healed but because the devil comes in and says "it still hurts did he really heal you??" causes doubt and then what?? you give your authority back to him once again. This is what happens all day long and every day of our lives.
Who do you believe?? Your reality is going to reflect it!! Do you have a kingdom reality?? or do you believe the lies of satan and live in his reality??
Remember you cannot believe both!! You have a choice, Choose Life, Choose God!
So the devil throws me a pity party and I attended with my pity party hat on. I didn't enjoy opening presents or watching the kids open them and all my presents well of course I took them all personal and wasn't happy. I could see this day was going to be fun. Now onto the struggle to take back what I had given away.
Makes me go back to where the battle originally started, God made man in his image, gave them complete dominion over all the earth and everything in it. Well one little questioning by the devil and they handed their authority over to satan and falled into sin. We are presented daily with ways to question God and a trap set before us so we are constantly faced with giving our authority back over to satan.
Genesis 3:1-6
1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, "Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?" 2 The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, 3 but God did say, 'You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.' " 4 "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. 5 "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil." 6 When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it.
My authority (which was given back to me through Jesus Christ our savior) was now handed back to satan and my challenge was how do I get it back? I felt soooo sad crying uncontrollably at times and helpless. But was I helpless?? I believed I was. I really felt the Lord telling me he was pruning me. I had been making some good progress in my adventure with him and he always rewards progress with more pruning. God wants us to be able to handle his blessings but before that happens you must lose more of yourself and we all know that sucks cause it hurts. So I am not going to let this ruin my Xmas but now I am faced with this confusion (confusion is so not of God) is God pruning me? or is satan just tormenting me? So the pity party went on all day and I was a mess. I tend to clean during my pity parties while everyone else is having fun, I guess I think everyone else in the house should be as miserable as I am. So cleaning went on all day! (Probably should mention I own my own business and work a lot so down time is important and cleaning is not down town lol)
Finally I took a shower and decided its time to take back control, I was determined to have a better night. I get out of the shower feeling refreshed only to find myself vacuuming a few minutes later. I hear the Spirit say "haven't you vacuumed 3 times today?" Texting one of my christian friends he starts to share some of his insight from his personal experiences. Him and I are a lot alike and hes been on his adventure with God longer than I have so he is definitely a divine person in my life God uses to help me out. So of course he starts talking about doing too much and how down time is needed. Ummmm wow thanks Lord you just asked me about vacuuming for the 3rd time so this is really for me! I had worn myself out and had not stopped at all. I seem to be always working and have a hard time even stopping cause there is so much more to do. But isn't there always something to do? Don't we have to make the decision to actually say No to something and sit and relax? I had been given choices many days before only to continue to get busier and busier doing waaaay too much. Thinking about it God had warned me before and this is the result I have from not listening. Because I was tired I threw a fit when I was woken up then a pity party feeling sorry for myself only to clean believing the lies that it couldn't be done later making myself more tired and trying to make everyone else feel bad for me ruining their day. I was jealous they where having fun and not miserable with me. But the sad thing was I know I hurt my husbands feelings because I really bashed all the gifts he got me. So now I feel bad because in the end I did end up making them all feel bad for me making their day worse. See the chain reaction?? Luckily by His grace I am forgiven and I can move onto another day.
Woke up the next day (slept in on a Monday that's right finally took the Lords advice to rest) spoke to my lovely friend who tells me something he heard that morning. The preacher says his daughter has a headache, she tells him she believes God has healed her headache but it still hurts. Dad says well which reality do you believe more? Do you believe God healed you even if it still hurts?
So to me this speaks volumes because God always tells me do you believe me or him? You cannot believe both. So she believed she was healed but because the devil comes in and says "it still hurts did he really heal you??" causes doubt and then what?? you give your authority back to him once again. This is what happens all day long and every day of our lives.
Who do you believe?? Your reality is going to reflect it!! Do you have a kingdom reality?? or do you believe the lies of satan and live in his reality??
Remember you cannot believe both!! You have a choice, Choose Life, Choose God!
Dec 24, 2011
I have prepared with a few others a Xmas at the homeless shelter and today was the day to do it. I couldnt wait to see what God would do and I had expected Him to work his wonder. Spoke with a lovely woman and her daughter for over an hour (I cannot remember her name for the life of me) she had a very similar past as myself and was so down on herself. I prated with her and gave her encouragement that the Lord was with her and has good thoughts toward her even if it didn't feel like it.
Spoke with another woman name Christina, she had sadness in her eyes, I felt like she was lost. I told her God is here today and his anointing and power is available for her if she wanted it. She accepted my offer of prayer, I grabbed her hands and started praying and I felt God do something, now what was it? I have no clue but felt Him come through me.
So you would think success right? All that hard work paid off, kids smiling and God's love shared but that is not how I felt. I was disappointed like something was suppose to happen, something miraculous. I know God was there a heavy presence I felt but only prayed with 2 people?? Wasn't there suppose to be more? How silly I felt, I expected something but felt like I had gotten nothing. I do not help people to get a reward I do it just because God is good and i want to be good to others so I didn't like this feeling.
Went back to my moms house to see family that has hurt me in the past and being with them God really was able to heal my heart. I had overwhelming love for them and giving them a hug goodbye I held on really tight. Not sure why but I think God was healing me and helping me forgive 100%. No more anger only love and compassion left. Maybe that's where Gods miracle was today?? Maybe his power was in that?? Not sure but that's what I thought.
Had a dream that night Christina was standing in front of me and God's spirit wrapped around her and she was engrossed in white praising God. Woke up in an awesome mood (not like me cause I do not like to be woken up at all I am miss grump) I felt the Lord tell me the miracle happened after you had been gone. You will not always see the miracle but it doesn't mean I "God" didn't do one after you left.
Vessel: a hollow or concave utensil, as a cup, bowl, pitcher, or vase, used for holding liquids or other contents. - We are vessels for God's Spirit and its are job to carry the Spirit and release the Spirit everywhere we go, God then can move anyway he wants.
Spoke with another woman name Christina, she had sadness in her eyes, I felt like she was lost. I told her God is here today and his anointing and power is available for her if she wanted it. She accepted my offer of prayer, I grabbed her hands and started praying and I felt God do something, now what was it? I have no clue but felt Him come through me.
So you would think success right? All that hard work paid off, kids smiling and God's love shared but that is not how I felt. I was disappointed like something was suppose to happen, something miraculous. I know God was there a heavy presence I felt but only prayed with 2 people?? Wasn't there suppose to be more? How silly I felt, I expected something but felt like I had gotten nothing. I do not help people to get a reward I do it just because God is good and i want to be good to others so I didn't like this feeling.
Went back to my moms house to see family that has hurt me in the past and being with them God really was able to heal my heart. I had overwhelming love for them and giving them a hug goodbye I held on really tight. Not sure why but I think God was healing me and helping me forgive 100%. No more anger only love and compassion left. Maybe that's where Gods miracle was today?? Maybe his power was in that?? Not sure but that's what I thought.
Had a dream that night Christina was standing in front of me and God's spirit wrapped around her and she was engrossed in white praising God. Woke up in an awesome mood (not like me cause I do not like to be woken up at all I am miss grump) I felt the Lord tell me the miracle happened after you had been gone. You will not always see the miracle but it doesn't mean I "God" didn't do one after you left.
Vessel: a hollow or concave utensil, as a cup, bowl, pitcher, or vase, used for holding liquids or other contents. - We are vessels for God's Spirit and its are job to carry the Spirit and release the Spirit everywhere we go, God then can move anyway he wants.
Welcome to My Journal
God asked me if I wanted to go on an adventure and I said YES! This is my journal to keep track of the things going on daily in my life and self. God says to write things on the tablets of our hearts, now I know he is usually referring to his commandments and His word but I felt he prompted me a few months ago to make a a book of remembrance so I started writing big moments down but now I am seeing each day he is doing something in me and its important to remember those things. I am also finding the Lord saying share that with someone others struggle with the same things you do but don't like to talk about it so I have decided to do that here and welcome any comments, suggestions, revelations or words from God you have experienced.
Bind them on your fingers; write them on the tablet of your heart. - Proverbs 7:3
Bind them on your fingers; write them on the tablet of your heart. - Proverbs 7:3
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