On Sunday May 13, 2012 God came down and touched me like he has never touched me before! It was amazing! The church service was about fire and more fire of God. Time for prayer and of course I went up there! You say God wants to bless me or change me and I say I am there!! Touch me God!!
As Sophia was starting to pray I felt God, every word that came from her lips about knocked me down, I could barely stand and she was no where near me. Then she comes up to me touches my head and down I go! I knew that was coming! But I did not expect what came next! I start shaking up uncontrollably. She put her hand on my belly and started praying more and more more I twitched. It did not feel good but it didnt hurt either it was just uncomfortable, kind of like when you get a shock from someone touching you except this was all over my body.
I heard God say I took some of you away and gave you more of me. Oh boy did he! It was amazing, she said she say a flower growing from within me and that its growth was just doubled, it sprouted up out of the dirt! How awesome God is! She then moved on and I continued to shake on the floor, it actually went on all night. I drove home and my daughter was laughing at me because I kept flinching. It was great! A special touch from God! Thank you Lord for taking away me and replacing it with you!
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Deliverance
So ever since I learned how to war in tongues I have been on a mission for deliverance for all! Friday night I was with my lovely friend Christianna and her hubby and we made it a praise and worship night with some fighting prayer!!
We start praising the Lord and God never fails he walked right into the room. He came in the form of smoke it was so cloudy in the corner of the room. I would walk into the cloud practically fall over and then walk away, go back into the cloud feel drunk and walk away. It was AWESOME!! Come to find out later Roger said Jesus was standing in the corner talking to him. Hallelujah! God always shows up!! Thank you Jesus!!
Anyway started praying for my friend, she has had a pain in her side and felt it was something she needed deliverance from so we start waring in tongues.
Out of no where my hand just gets on FIRE!! and I mean FIRE!! I have never felt such a thing. I knew the holy ghost wanted to do something. So I placed my hand on her belly and kept praying! All of the sudden my whole arm begin to shake and it was not something I can control!
I told Roger "look look" and he laughed and said "more Lord more". My arm was shaking more and it was even hotter! I now put it on her head and kept praying! More Lord more Lord! I got louder and said I would not leave or stop until this demon came out of her and a few minutes later a scream and cry happened! I then felt peace. It came out. She sobbed but I knew at that moment she was free from a bondage! God came and broke that chain and she finally was released from captivity in that area.
It was AMAZING! She said he gut hurt afterward and she looked like she had been hit by a truck but she really had been hit with the power of God! hehe!
God gave me a vision and showed me her dancing in a beautiful white gown so graceful like a flower blooming! She was beautiful and I believe thats how God saw her!
Thank you Lord a wonderful experience and using my hands as your own! Thank you for freedom! Thank you for mercy and grace! You are ever faithful and I am truly honored to be called your child!
We start praising the Lord and God never fails he walked right into the room. He came in the form of smoke it was so cloudy in the corner of the room. I would walk into the cloud practically fall over and then walk away, go back into the cloud feel drunk and walk away. It was AWESOME!! Come to find out later Roger said Jesus was standing in the corner talking to him. Hallelujah! God always shows up!! Thank you Jesus!!
Anyway started praying for my friend, she has had a pain in her side and felt it was something she needed deliverance from so we start waring in tongues.
Out of no where my hand just gets on FIRE!! and I mean FIRE!! I have never felt such a thing. I knew the holy ghost wanted to do something. So I placed my hand on her belly and kept praying! All of the sudden my whole arm begin to shake and it was not something I can control!
I told Roger "look look" and he laughed and said "more Lord more". My arm was shaking more and it was even hotter! I now put it on her head and kept praying! More Lord more Lord! I got louder and said I would not leave or stop until this demon came out of her and a few minutes later a scream and cry happened! I then felt peace. It came out. She sobbed but I knew at that moment she was free from a bondage! God came and broke that chain and she finally was released from captivity in that area.
It was AMAZING! She said he gut hurt afterward and she looked like she had been hit by a truck but she really had been hit with the power of God! hehe!
God gave me a vision and showed me her dancing in a beautiful white gown so graceful like a flower blooming! She was beautiful and I believe thats how God saw her!
Thank you Lord a wonderful experience and using my hands as your own! Thank you for freedom! Thank you for mercy and grace! You are ever faithful and I am truly honored to be called your child!
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Warring in Tongues
So I learned something new this week at our prayer meeting and it is!! Drum Roll please!!! Waring of the tongues! So I was very excited of course, I feel like I do not know much about the spiritual warfare when it comes to Gods kingdom so this is good stuff!
So its a deep groaning from within when speaking in tongues and I thought okay Im gonna try this! Monday morning I sit down and start speaking in tongues but this time I go longer than usual, I decided I am going to stop when I feel the holy ghost is finished. So I start and keep going and going and I would say about 15 min in the tongues changed. It was deeper, the tone was more desperate. (In my mind I should mention I was like okay God I do not understand this, I cannot control it but go for it, you can stop it if you want) Out of nowhere I started crying but I wasnt sad, I couldnt control it and the tone changed again like the spirit was pleading for something begging for God to do something. This went on for like 15 more min and then I gagged coughed something ugly up and I was done.
Talk about a good morning with God! I do not know what happened but my good friend told me it was travailing in the spirit. I was excited I knew God did something big for someone! Chains feel off! So from now on I make a vow to do this warring of the tongues every day so we can gain some ground in the spirit realm!
So its a deep groaning from within when speaking in tongues and I thought okay Im gonna try this! Monday morning I sit down and start speaking in tongues but this time I go longer than usual, I decided I am going to stop when I feel the holy ghost is finished. So I start and keep going and going and I would say about 15 min in the tongues changed. It was deeper, the tone was more desperate. (In my mind I should mention I was like okay God I do not understand this, I cannot control it but go for it, you can stop it if you want) Out of nowhere I started crying but I wasnt sad, I couldnt control it and the tone changed again like the spirit was pleading for something begging for God to do something. This went on for like 15 more min and then I gagged coughed something ugly up and I was done.
Talk about a good morning with God! I do not know what happened but my good friend told me it was travailing in the spirit. I was excited I knew God did something big for someone! Chains feel off! So from now on I make a vow to do this warring of the tongues every day so we can gain some ground in the spirit realm!
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Psalm 15
Some words of wisdom from kind David
Lord, who may dwell in your sanctuary? Who may live on your holy hill?
He whose walk is blameless and who does what is righteous, who speaks truth from his heart
and has no slander on his tongue, who does his neighbhor no wrong and casts no slur on his fellowman,
who despises a vile man but honors those who fear the Lord, who keeps his oath even when it hurts,
who lends his money without usury and does not accept a bribe againse the innocent.
He who does these things will NEVER be shaken.
Lord, who may dwell in your sanctuary? Who may live on your holy hill?
He whose walk is blameless and who does what is righteous, who speaks truth from his heart
and has no slander on his tongue, who does his neighbhor no wrong and casts no slur on his fellowman,
who despises a vile man but honors those who fear the Lord, who keeps his oath even when it hurts,
who lends his money without usury and does not accept a bribe againse the innocent.
He who does these things will NEVER be shaken.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Fear of Rejection
God has been moving and changing me in a way like no other. Recently it has been to bring things to light that I had forgotten about or it was such a norm I didn't realize what was true and what wasn't or knowing truth but falling back into that nonsense by habit. So a few memories have been kicked back to me and I nearly gasped when they came forth. This one for me is an interesting one yet it made me understand a few things about me.
I think its safe to say its normal to want to fit in as a child or teenager but to what extent would you go to for it? I didn't realize until now that I did a lot of things just to be accepted and that's pretty sad. I made the choice to do these things so there is no blame put off on others that was solely my decision and I have to be accountable for it.
A few things I did to feel accepted:
I think its pretty sad that I felt I had to even engage or make anything up to feel accepted and whats sadder was I wanted to fit in with people thinking their ways where right knowing they weren't. My goal is now to help others that feel the same way get freedom and to talk about all these things everywhere I go.
God told me a long time ago I am not abnormal a lot of people do these things but never acknowledge it or they said it so much it actually becomes part of their memories. You can definitely reason your with yourself but the truth is still there deep in your heart and I am glad Jesus shined the light so it can come out. Thankfully God has shined some truth into my life and I do not have to be ashamed of any of it. Thankfully he has changed me so I can see these things and say okay this is truth it hurts it sucks but I can not hold onto it anymore and give it to Him. God will now sew up that wound.
This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. - John 3:19
Father I pray that all who read this are touched by your truth. That the light be shined in a dark place. We have all felt the sting of rejection but you tell us Jesus was rejected so we can be accepted. So I pray that all who read this and feel rejected be knocked over by your grace, mercy and love. That they feel they are accepted by you who loves them more than anything. I ask that you bring healing to their wounds and show them the love and kindness you have shown me through your Son Jesus. Thank you Lord for the privilege to love and serve such a loving God. In Jesus Name Amen!
I think its safe to say its normal to want to fit in as a child or teenager but to what extent would you go to for it? I didn't realize until now that I did a lot of things just to be accepted and that's pretty sad. I made the choice to do these things so there is no blame put off on others that was solely my decision and I have to be accountable for it.
A few things I did to feel accepted:
- Had sex with someone even though I didn't really want to
- Smoked cigarettes
- Drugs (now this was from a feeling of rejection but not from this stand point of wanting to be accepted it was to run away from that pain of someone who had rejected me)
- Lied A LOT!
- Made up stories and exaggerated situations to fit in (used to say I was a stripper)
I think its pretty sad that I felt I had to even engage or make anything up to feel accepted and whats sadder was I wanted to fit in with people thinking their ways where right knowing they weren't. My goal is now to help others that feel the same way get freedom and to talk about all these things everywhere I go.
God told me a long time ago I am not abnormal a lot of people do these things but never acknowledge it or they said it so much it actually becomes part of their memories. You can definitely reason your with yourself but the truth is still there deep in your heart and I am glad Jesus shined the light so it can come out. Thankfully God has shined some truth into my life and I do not have to be ashamed of any of it. Thankfully he has changed me so I can see these things and say okay this is truth it hurts it sucks but I can not hold onto it anymore and give it to Him. God will now sew up that wound.
This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. - John 3:19
Father I pray that all who read this are touched by your truth. That the light be shined in a dark place. We have all felt the sting of rejection but you tell us Jesus was rejected so we can be accepted. So I pray that all who read this and feel rejected be knocked over by your grace, mercy and love. That they feel they are accepted by you who loves them more than anything. I ask that you bring healing to their wounds and show them the love and kindness you have shown me through your Son Jesus. Thank you Lord for the privilege to love and serve such a loving God. In Jesus Name Amen!
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Secrets
Have you ever just been sitting there and all of a sudden a memory comes out of no where? Its like it was gone and now its back. The memory didn't cross your mind in years and all of the sudden its back. What do you do with this memory? So it happened to me the other day and I must say I was surprised. But I knew if it came to my heart there was a reason for it. So I said okay God is this something I need to address??
I have been working on all my apologies and clearing my conscience of past wrongs toward people and this happened to be one of them. So a secret I had been keeping.
When I was 16 I gave my first born up for adoption, one of the best decisions I had made but a few years later someone brought to my attention another person I was with at a very similar time. This made me question who his biological father really was. So this thought came and went and 14 years later God brought it back to my mind. So what do I do with this? I didn't think it was necessary to tell anyone, why its been 14 years and he has his own family so who care right? (I know it sounds harsh but those where my thoughts) But I really felt the Lord say you do know know 100% and you need to let certain people know about that. So I must say I reasoned with myself for a week trying to find a way out of it but I finally said okay God if I need to address this then I will. So yesterday was that day. I have to tell you it took all day to get the words out of my mouth but I finally did it and it was freeing.
God showed me I was worried about what people thought about me and it wasn't important. If it was important than why did I keep this secret from myself and others? Why couldn't I talk about it?
It had become a stronghold on my life and I didnt even know it, so I had to handle it so I could move on. Honestly I am a bit afraid of what else is hidden in there but I know whatever God reminds me of is for a reason. Its to set me free and humble me in the process.
Are you keeping secrets?? Confession is one of the best ways to address that, let God set you free today!
I have been working on all my apologies and clearing my conscience of past wrongs toward people and this happened to be one of them. So a secret I had been keeping.
When I was 16 I gave my first born up for adoption, one of the best decisions I had made but a few years later someone brought to my attention another person I was with at a very similar time. This made me question who his biological father really was. So this thought came and went and 14 years later God brought it back to my mind. So what do I do with this? I didn't think it was necessary to tell anyone, why its been 14 years and he has his own family so who care right? (I know it sounds harsh but those where my thoughts) But I really felt the Lord say you do know know 100% and you need to let certain people know about that. So I must say I reasoned with myself for a week trying to find a way out of it but I finally said okay God if I need to address this then I will. So yesterday was that day. I have to tell you it took all day to get the words out of my mouth but I finally did it and it was freeing.
God showed me I was worried about what people thought about me and it wasn't important. If it was important than why did I keep this secret from myself and others? Why couldn't I talk about it?
It had become a stronghold on my life and I didnt even know it, so I had to handle it so I could move on. Honestly I am a bit afraid of what else is hidden in there but I know whatever God reminds me of is for a reason. Its to set me free and humble me in the process.
Are you keeping secrets?? Confession is one of the best ways to address that, let God set you free today!
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Coming Into the Light
So Jesus is referred to as light and I wanted to break it down for you a bit since I have been working on certain verses for my bible study.
John 3:19-21
"This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil.
Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed.
But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God."
First off Jesus is speaking in these verses and whenever Jesus speaks we know its important! I always say he was a man of few words but always had a lot to say. He always gets to the point and doesn't mess around with useless babble.
Definition of Light: something that makes things visible or affords illumination (illumination = knowledge, insight, wisdom)
The bible refers to light either by literally like sun gives off light or knowledge or bring something forth so it can be seen. God says in the beginning "God saw the light was good and he separated the light from darkness" - Genesis 1:4
Studying this I started to realize that it all means the same thing. You can see easier during the day because the sun gives off light which is why we stay awake all day and sleep all night right? While the moon also gives off light its not as bright as the sun. We turn on the lights at night why?? so we can see and don't trip on things as we walk around the house. So Jesus is the light of the world and he comes in to shine his light "truth" on us it exposes who we really are on the inside.
Darkness is basically what? ignorance, lack of knowledge etc. We cannot see when its dark in the house right? We wouldn't be able to see the couch or toys on the floor if the lights where out in the house. We turn on the light so we can see whats in our way and we can either pick it up or go around it. So Jesus is the same way except he came for the heart of man. He exposes who we really are inside. Coming into the light allows us to see us for who we really are, allowing us to repent, be forgiven and then being changed by God.
So our heart is the dirty house with no lights, there are toys all over the floor, furniture everywhere, cob webs and dust everywhere. (I think you get the point) Would anyone be able to walk in there while its dark? No because its toxic, we would trip over the toys and probably get bitten by a spider. While its dark though do you see anything wrong with his house?? No because its dark you cannot see anything so you would have no clue about the toys or furniture or bugs. As we move through life in the darkness we trip, stumble, get stung and what about others moving through life with us? same thing they get hurt stumble and get stung. And our thoughts?? We have no clue why but all we know is its not our fault, it was a poor childhood, someone was mean to you, I didn't have as much as some did growing up, I was hurt by my parents, I was hurt by my friend etc etc. While some of our circumstances are not in our control and yes some are worse than others we still cannot blame the way we live/lived on someone else.
Jesus comes in with a light and shines it on the areas that need to be cleaned. Accepting this truth and truly repenting and allowing Jesus to change our dirty heart to a new clean one. Jesus cleans out the old dirty house and makes it a new. Jesus exposes the big furniture in the room and helps us move it out of the way so we can move around without getting hurt or hurting others. But for Jesus to come in with that light that means what? our dirty laundry is exposed. That means we have to deal with the bad choices we have made and the truth about us.
An example: I was rejected by my father when I was younger and he didn't love me the way I needed to be loved. So what did I do? I slept with every guy I could find hoping to feel that love I was missing. I did drugs to numb the pain. I was with women, I did porn, I made money while exposing myself online (online stripper is what they called it then). Did I think any of these things where wrong?? Some I can sadly say yes I knew it was wrong and still did it but I had convinced myself that it was okay to do all of those things. I didn't even really know why I did most of those things, I knew I was running just not sure what I was running from. I hurt every male I came into contact with. I was disconnected and didn't care about anyone else but myself. I liked the older men (looking for that daddy) and treated each one of them like they where garbage. So was my house dirty?? Oh you bet it was no one could come into that place without getting chewed up and spit out. Who was I hurting? Of course myself but we cannot forget each person I came in contact with and lets not forget those that loved me and watched me do this. Most of them still do not know the extent to the things I did.
So I find Jesus and what does he do?? Took that light and showed me the big pieces of furniture sitting around and helped me clean it up. At this point I still did not know why I did any of these things but God brought to light the things that where really big and filthy and dealt with them. Removed them from my life. So this gives me a little wiggle room in my dirty house and I can now was without falling every 2 seconds but its better than before. Is he done? NO WAY! Hes only just begun to clean house. (this was 10 years ago) I didn't really know Jesus at this point, I thought I did but I know now I only knew about him and didnt know him. Many years passed I am now a wife with 3 kids. God gets my attention with a lovely preacher name Joyce Meyer and starts shining some more light. As I get to know him more and more becomes exposed. I get the Holy Spirit and watch out the consuming fire has come to really clean some house. He started showing me what happened and why I did the things I did and then it gets ugly he exposes that I had become the one that hurt me the most. I was doing the same thing to my kids that was done to me. I was grieved, I cried, I was ashamed, I could not believe it. The one who hurt me the most I had become. I confessed this before the Lord pleading for help and you know what he said. "You are forgiven, My grace is enough for you and I can show you how to love." So that truth SUCKED in every way shape or form, I knew nothing about it and hearing it was one of the worst things ever but if God did not shine his light there and expose the truth about me then I would have hurt my kids the same way I was hurt and they would have gone and done the same things I did.
My children would have had the same issues and same dirty house I had and who knows what would have happened. God shed some light with love and mercy and said lets clean this house up and I will show you how to love so the same damage is not done.
So after all that folks the light is truth about us, and the darkness is ignorance about us. Yes ignorance feels better for the moment but it is TOXIC and kills you and everyone around you.
Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed.
Your deeds will be exposed by the light of God and it HURTS but only for a moment! Gods gentle loving touch comes right in (if you let him) and sets you free and covers you with the grace and mercy given by the blood of Jesus Christ.
but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil.
We love the ignorance because we think we are right, we think we are okay, we think we do not need anyone, we think we are strong, we are full of pride and selfishness, we think its someone elses fault, we think we cannot change, we think we are good most of the time etc etc.
Do not believe the darkness its a LIE!!!! It makes you feel comfortable for a moment but you are toxic on the inside and out. Hurting others and a slave to yourself.
Let the one who saves and shines light set you free!! He wants to! He loves you sooooo much he is knocking on that door hoping you will open it. He is pleading for your life and begging for you to accept his mercy and grace. He wants to bandage up your wounds and show you how to live with joy and peace. He wants to shower you with love and hold you in his arms and tell you its going to be okay. Your maker loves you soooo much and it hurts him to see you this way.
2 Peter 3:9
The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
Anyone means you!!!!
Father I pray that anyone who reads this has a revelation of your love and mercy and grace. That no matter what they may have done or are currently doing is not too much to come to you and receive your love. You do not desire anyone to perish and I am truly thankful for your loving, patient, merciful heart toward your children. Jesus I thank you for being the ultimate sacrifice so we can come and get to know the Father intimately and for bandaging up our wounds. You came for the sinner and I pray in Jesus name that anyone reading this right now is hit with the light and throws themselves down at your feet in repentance. And then accepts the loving forgiveness and mercy offered by you for free. You already paid the price so we can be free. Show all who reads this that the light is good and if we repent and receive your mercy we do not have to be ashamed that we are made a new in you. I am ever grateful for your truth and light! Thank you Holy Spirit for guiding me through these hard times of exposure of myself. You always do it little by little and you do it gently, then bind up those wounds and change our hearts more and more. You are the ultimate maid for our dirty hearts and minds and I am thankful for your everlasting grace and love. I love you Lord! in Jesus name Amen!!
John 3:19-21
"This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil.
Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed.
But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God."
First off Jesus is speaking in these verses and whenever Jesus speaks we know its important! I always say he was a man of few words but always had a lot to say. He always gets to the point and doesn't mess around with useless babble.
Definition of Light: something that makes things visible or affords illumination (illumination = knowledge, insight, wisdom)
The bible refers to light either by literally like sun gives off light or knowledge or bring something forth so it can be seen. God says in the beginning "God saw the light was good and he separated the light from darkness" - Genesis 1:4
Studying this I started to realize that it all means the same thing. You can see easier during the day because the sun gives off light which is why we stay awake all day and sleep all night right? While the moon also gives off light its not as bright as the sun. We turn on the lights at night why?? so we can see and don't trip on things as we walk around the house. So Jesus is the light of the world and he comes in to shine his light "truth" on us it exposes who we really are on the inside.
Darkness is basically what? ignorance, lack of knowledge etc. We cannot see when its dark in the house right? We wouldn't be able to see the couch or toys on the floor if the lights where out in the house. We turn on the light so we can see whats in our way and we can either pick it up or go around it. So Jesus is the same way except he came for the heart of man. He exposes who we really are inside. Coming into the light allows us to see us for who we really are, allowing us to repent, be forgiven and then being changed by God.
So our heart is the dirty house with no lights, there are toys all over the floor, furniture everywhere, cob webs and dust everywhere. (I think you get the point) Would anyone be able to walk in there while its dark? No because its toxic, we would trip over the toys and probably get bitten by a spider. While its dark though do you see anything wrong with his house?? No because its dark you cannot see anything so you would have no clue about the toys or furniture or bugs. As we move through life in the darkness we trip, stumble, get stung and what about others moving through life with us? same thing they get hurt stumble and get stung. And our thoughts?? We have no clue why but all we know is its not our fault, it was a poor childhood, someone was mean to you, I didn't have as much as some did growing up, I was hurt by my parents, I was hurt by my friend etc etc. While some of our circumstances are not in our control and yes some are worse than others we still cannot blame the way we live/lived on someone else.
Jesus comes in with a light and shines it on the areas that need to be cleaned. Accepting this truth and truly repenting and allowing Jesus to change our dirty heart to a new clean one. Jesus cleans out the old dirty house and makes it a new. Jesus exposes the big furniture in the room and helps us move it out of the way so we can move around without getting hurt or hurting others. But for Jesus to come in with that light that means what? our dirty laundry is exposed. That means we have to deal with the bad choices we have made and the truth about us.
An example: I was rejected by my father when I was younger and he didn't love me the way I needed to be loved. So what did I do? I slept with every guy I could find hoping to feel that love I was missing. I did drugs to numb the pain. I was with women, I did porn, I made money while exposing myself online (online stripper is what they called it then). Did I think any of these things where wrong?? Some I can sadly say yes I knew it was wrong and still did it but I had convinced myself that it was okay to do all of those things. I didn't even really know why I did most of those things, I knew I was running just not sure what I was running from. I hurt every male I came into contact with. I was disconnected and didn't care about anyone else but myself. I liked the older men (looking for that daddy) and treated each one of them like they where garbage. So was my house dirty?? Oh you bet it was no one could come into that place without getting chewed up and spit out. Who was I hurting? Of course myself but we cannot forget each person I came in contact with and lets not forget those that loved me and watched me do this. Most of them still do not know the extent to the things I did.
So I find Jesus and what does he do?? Took that light and showed me the big pieces of furniture sitting around and helped me clean it up. At this point I still did not know why I did any of these things but God brought to light the things that where really big and filthy and dealt with them. Removed them from my life. So this gives me a little wiggle room in my dirty house and I can now was without falling every 2 seconds but its better than before. Is he done? NO WAY! Hes only just begun to clean house. (this was 10 years ago) I didn't really know Jesus at this point, I thought I did but I know now I only knew about him and didnt know him. Many years passed I am now a wife with 3 kids. God gets my attention with a lovely preacher name Joyce Meyer and starts shining some more light. As I get to know him more and more becomes exposed. I get the Holy Spirit and watch out the consuming fire has come to really clean some house. He started showing me what happened and why I did the things I did and then it gets ugly he exposes that I had become the one that hurt me the most. I was doing the same thing to my kids that was done to me. I was grieved, I cried, I was ashamed, I could not believe it. The one who hurt me the most I had become. I confessed this before the Lord pleading for help and you know what he said. "You are forgiven, My grace is enough for you and I can show you how to love." So that truth SUCKED in every way shape or form, I knew nothing about it and hearing it was one of the worst things ever but if God did not shine his light there and expose the truth about me then I would have hurt my kids the same way I was hurt and they would have gone and done the same things I did.
My children would have had the same issues and same dirty house I had and who knows what would have happened. God shed some light with love and mercy and said lets clean this house up and I will show you how to love so the same damage is not done.
So after all that folks the light is truth about us, and the darkness is ignorance about us. Yes ignorance feels better for the moment but it is TOXIC and kills you and everyone around you.
Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed.
Your deeds will be exposed by the light of God and it HURTS but only for a moment! Gods gentle loving touch comes right in (if you let him) and sets you free and covers you with the grace and mercy given by the blood of Jesus Christ.
but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil.
We love the ignorance because we think we are right, we think we are okay, we think we do not need anyone, we think we are strong, we are full of pride and selfishness, we think its someone elses fault, we think we cannot change, we think we are good most of the time etc etc.
Do not believe the darkness its a LIE!!!! It makes you feel comfortable for a moment but you are toxic on the inside and out. Hurting others and a slave to yourself.
Let the one who saves and shines light set you free!! He wants to! He loves you sooooo much he is knocking on that door hoping you will open it. He is pleading for your life and begging for you to accept his mercy and grace. He wants to bandage up your wounds and show you how to live with joy and peace. He wants to shower you with love and hold you in his arms and tell you its going to be okay. Your maker loves you soooo much and it hurts him to see you this way.
2 Peter 3:9
The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
Anyone means you!!!!
Father I pray that anyone who reads this has a revelation of your love and mercy and grace. That no matter what they may have done or are currently doing is not too much to come to you and receive your love. You do not desire anyone to perish and I am truly thankful for your loving, patient, merciful heart toward your children. Jesus I thank you for being the ultimate sacrifice so we can come and get to know the Father intimately and for bandaging up our wounds. You came for the sinner and I pray in Jesus name that anyone reading this right now is hit with the light and throws themselves down at your feet in repentance. And then accepts the loving forgiveness and mercy offered by you for free. You already paid the price so we can be free. Show all who reads this that the light is good and if we repent and receive your mercy we do not have to be ashamed that we are made a new in you. I am ever grateful for your truth and light! Thank you Holy Spirit for guiding me through these hard times of exposure of myself. You always do it little by little and you do it gently, then bind up those wounds and change our hearts more and more. You are the ultimate maid for our dirty hearts and minds and I am thankful for your everlasting grace and love. I love you Lord! in Jesus name Amen!!
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