Prophecy For Tonight!

He saw me sitting at the Orange County Fair, he said I had a huge turkey leg in my hand and when I bit into it I went nuts with excitement. I was so excited about it I got up and ran around and offered it to everyone else at the fair.

I was eager to share it and everyone else needed to have it. He said I was contagious with the happiness and excitement of God and God was going to increase that contagion to everyone around me.

He said he also saw my Christian friends and family who I have been around for a long time, I start feeding them and they proceed to run behind me and vomit like crazy. He said they where vomiting all the bad stuff they thought they knew about God.

Fed Up With Fear

Went to dinner with my brother Steve. Broke bread and talked about God all night. Stood outside for a long time chatting about Jesus.

People where around us and I just wanted to bless someone. Felt like it was suppose to be for this girl standing close by. She was around awhile but I didn’t talk to her. Fear stopped me, I repented for it.

Finally I got fed up I was angry with the devil and saw another woman and went up and talked to her.

Her name was Missy.

I asked her: “Are you a holy woman of God?” She said “No” smoking her cigarette. I said “Did you know that you are going to be?” She laughed and looked at me like I was crazy.

I tell her “God has called you to be a prophet for the nations and he wants to bless you.”

She said I could pray for her and I was excited. I prayed for her quickly and she went about her way.

Something in me kicked up I was tired of being afraid, I was tired of caring what other people thought, I was tired of the fear. It doesn’t hurt to ask someone if they need prayer the worst thing they can say is no.

I pray for courage and boldness to pray for others and preach the good news.

Go By My Word Not Your Feelings

I was woken up early and couldn’t sleep (which is odd for me). I thought to myself I can get up and start working on the garage (since we are getting ready to move) I heard God say or you can go worship me. God must have something to tell me. Started praise and worship, repented of selfishness, fear and asked God to change my heart.

Cried out to God about my fear of talking to people and how I wanted to be pleasing to God.

God says: “ I am already pleased with you. Nothing you do can change that I am pleased with you. You have repented (felt him show me actually turning from one path to another) and started walking in the right direction. I am doing fine.

God says: “ You are my daughter I am pleased with you.”

Me: I express my desire to be a soul winner everywhere I go.

God says: “I am pleased with you rather you win souls or not. I want obedience not sacrifices.

Don’t go by how you feel about me go by what I tell you about me in my word. Do you feel like I would never leave you or forsake you?”

Me: No it doesn’t always feel like you are there.

God says: “Remember other times.”

Me: You were always there, you always took care of me.

God says: “The feelings I have given you are special. I can make you feel good but just because you don’t always feel that doesn’t mean I am not there. I will never leave you or forsake you. I mean that and have not changed. Learn what my word says and believe that.”

A Touch From God

On Sunday May 13, 2012 God came down and touched me like he has never touched me before! It was amazing! The church service was about fire and more fire of God. Time for prayer and of course I went up there! You say God wants to bless me or change me and I say I am there!! Touch me God!!

As Sophia was starting to pray I felt God, every word that came from her lips about knocked me down, I could barely stand and she was no where near me. Then she comes up to me touches my head and down I go! I knew that was coming! But I did not expect what came next! I start shaking up uncontrollably. She put her hand on my belly and started praying more and more more I twitched. It did not feel good but it didnt hurt either it was just uncomfortable, kind of like when you get a shock from someone touching you except this was all over my body.

I heard God say I took some of you away and gave you more of me. Oh boy did he! It was amazing, she said she say a flower growing from within me and that its growth was just doubled, it sprouted up out of the dirt! How awesome God is! She then moved on and I continued to shake on the floor, it actually went on all night. I drove home and my daughter was laughing at me because I kept flinching. It was great! A special touch from God! Thank you Lord for taking away me and replacing it with you!

Deliverance

So ever since I learned how to war in tongues I have been on a mission for deliverance for all! Friday night I was with my lovely friend Christianna and her hubby and we made it a praise and worship night with some fighting prayer!!

We start praising the Lord and God never fails he walked right into the room. He came in the form of smoke it was so cloudy in the corner of the room. I would walk into the cloud practically fall over and then walk away, go back into the cloud feel drunk and walk away. It was AWESOME!! Come to find out later Roger said Jesus was standing in the corner talking to him. Hallelujah! God always shows up!! Thank you Jesus!!

Anyway started praying for my friend, she has had a pain in her side and felt it was something she needed deliverance from so we start waring in tongues.

Out of no where my hand just gets on FIRE!! and I mean FIRE!! I have never felt such a thing. I knew the holy ghost wanted to do something. So I placed my hand on her belly and kept praying! All of the sudden my whole arm begin to shake and it was not something I can control!

I told Roger "look look" and he laughed and said "more Lord more". My arm was shaking more and it was even hotter! I now put it on her head and kept praying! More Lord more Lord! I got louder and said I would not leave or stop until this demon came out of her and a few minutes later a scream and cry happened! I then felt peace. It came out. She sobbed but I knew at that moment she was free from a bondage! God came and broke that chain and she finally was released from captivity in that area.

It was AMAZING! She said he gut hurt afterward and she looked like she had been hit by a truck but she really had been hit with the power of God! hehe!

God gave me a vision and showed me her dancing in a beautiful white gown so graceful like a flower blooming! She was beautiful and I believe thats how God saw her!

Thank you Lord a wonderful experience and using my hands as your own! Thank you for freedom! Thank you for mercy and grace! You are ever faithful and I am truly honored to be called your child!

Warring in Tongues

So I learned something new this week at our prayer meeting and it is!! Drum Roll please!!! Waring of the tongues! So I was very excited of course, I feel like I do not know much about the spiritual warfare when it comes to Gods kingdom so this is good stuff!

So its a deep groaning from within when speaking in tongues and I thought okay Im gonna try this! Monday morning I sit down and start speaking in tongues but this time I go longer than usual, I decided I am going to stop when I feel the holy ghost is finished. So I start and keep going and going and I would say about 15 min in the tongues changed. It was deeper, the tone was more desperate. (In my mind I should mention I was like okay God I do not understand this, I cannot control it but go for it, you can stop it if you want) Out of nowhere I started crying but I wasnt sad, I couldnt control it and the tone changed again like the spirit was pleading for something begging for God to do something. This went on for like 15 more min and then I gagged coughed something ugly up and I was done.

Talk about a good morning with God! I do not know what happened but my good friend told me it was travailing in the spirit. I was excited I knew God did something big for someone! Chains feel off! So from now on I make a vow to do this warring of the tongues every day so we can gain some ground in the spirit realm!

Psalm 15

Some words of wisdom from kind David

Lord, who may dwell in your sanctuary? Who may live on your holy hill?

He whose walk is blameless and who does what is righteous, who speaks truth from his heart

and has no slander on his tongue, who does his neighbhor no wrong and casts no slur on his fellowman,

who despises a vile man but honors those who fear the Lord, who keeps his oath even when it hurts,

who lends his money without usury and does not accept a bribe againse the innocent.

He who does these things will NEVER be shaken.

Fear of Rejection

God has been moving and changing me in a way like no other. Recently it has been to bring things to light that I had forgotten about or it was such a norm I didn't realize what was true and what wasn't or knowing truth but falling back into that nonsense by habit. So a few memories have been kicked back to me and I nearly gasped when they came forth. This one for me is an interesting one yet it made me understand a few things about me.

I think its safe to say its normal to want to fit in as a child or teenager but to what extent would you go to for it? I didn't realize until now that I did a lot of things just to be accepted and that's pretty sad. I made the choice to do these things so there is no blame put off on others that was solely my decision and I have to be accountable for it.

A few things I did to feel accepted:

• Had sex with someone even though I didn't really want to
• Smoked cigarettes
• Drugs (now this was from a feeling of rejection but not from this stand point of wanting to be accepted it was to run away from that pain of someone who had rejected me)
• Lied A LOT!
• Made up stories and exaggerated situations to fit in (used to say I was a stripper)

So I think to myself who does these things? Who actually lies about sinning? Who actually does something they don't want to do because they want to feel accepted? I would say most people but most do not talk about it. I never talked about any of it until now and I blocked some of it out, didn't realize why I did some of it and now the light is shined in this spot and it must be talked about.

I think its pretty sad that I felt I had to even engage or make anything up to feel accepted and whats sadder was I wanted to fit in with people thinking their ways where right knowing they weren't. My goal is now to help others that feel the same way get freedom and to talk about all these things everywhere I go.

God told me a long time ago I am not abnormal a lot of people do these things but never acknowledge it or they said it so much it actually becomes part of their memories. You can definitely reason your with yourself but the truth is still there deep in your heart and I am glad Jesus shined the light so it can come out. Thankfully God has shined some truth into my life and I do not have to be ashamed of any of it. Thankfully he has changed me so I can see these things and say okay this is truth it hurts it sucks but I can not hold onto it anymore and give it to Him. God will now sew up that wound.

This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. - John 3:19


Father I pray that all who read this are touched by your truth. That the light be shined in a dark place. We have all felt the sting of rejection but you tell us Jesus was rejected so we can be accepted. So I pray that all who read this and feel rejected be knocked over by your grace, mercy and love. That they feel they are accepted by you who loves them more than anything. I ask that you bring healing to their wounds and show them the love and kindness you have shown me through your Son Jesus. Thank you Lord for the privilege to love and serve such a loving God. In Jesus Name Amen!

Secrets

Have you ever just been sitting there and all of a sudden a memory comes out of no where? Its like it was gone and now its back. The memory didn't cross your mind in years and all of the sudden its back. What do you do with this memory? So it happened to me the other day and I must say I was surprised. But I knew if it came to my heart there was a reason for it. So I said okay God is this something I need to address??

I have been working on all my apologies and clearing my conscience of past wrongs toward people and this happened to be one of them. So a secret I had been keeping.

When I was 16 I gave my first born up for adoption, one of the best decisions I had made but a few years later someone brought to my attention another person I was with at a very similar time. This made me question who his biological father really was. So this thought came and went and 14 years later God brought it back to my mind. So what do I do with this? I didn't think it was necessary to tell anyone, why its been 14 years and he has his own family so who care right? (I know it sounds harsh but those where my thoughts) But I really felt the Lord say you do know know 100% and you need to let certain people know about that. So I must say I  reasoned with myself for a week trying to find a way out of it but I finally said okay God if I need to address this then I will. So yesterday was that day. I have to tell you it took all day to get the words out of my mouth but I finally did it and it was freeing.

God showed me I was worried about what people thought about me and it wasn't important. If it was important than why did I keep this secret from myself and others? Why couldn't I talk about it?

It had become a stronghold on my life and I didnt even know it, so I had to handle it so I could move on. Honestly I am a bit afraid of what else is hidden in there but I know whatever God reminds me of is for a reason. Its to set me free and humble me in the process.

Are you keeping secrets?? Confession is one of the best ways to address that, let God set you free today!

Coming Into the Light

So Jesus is referred to as light and I wanted to break it down for you a bit since I have been working on certain verses for my bible study.


John 3:19-21


"This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil.


Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed.


But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God."


First off Jesus is speaking in these verses and whenever Jesus speaks we know its important! I always say he was a man of few words but always had a lot to say. He always gets to the point and doesn't mess around with useless babble.

Definition of Light: something that makes things visible or affords illumination (illumination = knowledge, insight, wisdom)

The bible refers to light either by literally like sun gives off light or knowledge or bring something forth so it can be seen. God says in the beginning "God saw the light was good and he separated the light from darkness" - Genesis 1:4


Studying this I started to realize that it all means the same thing. You can see easier during the day because the sun gives off light which is why we stay awake all day and sleep all night right? While the moon also gives off light its not as bright as the sun. We turn on the lights at night why?? so we can see and don't trip on things as we walk around the house. So Jesus is the light of the world and he comes in to shine his light "truth" on us it exposes who we really are on the inside.

Darkness is basically what? ignorance, lack of knowledge etc. We cannot see when its dark in the house right? We wouldn't be able to see the couch or toys on the floor if the lights where out in the house. We turn on the light so we can see whats in our way and we can either pick it up or go around it. So Jesus is the same way except he came for the heart of man. He exposes who we really are inside. Coming into the light allows us to see us for who we really are, allowing us to repent, be forgiven and then being changed by God.

So our heart is the dirty house with no lights, there are toys all over the floor, furniture everywhere, cob webs and dust everywhere. (I think you get the point) Would anyone be able to walk in there while its dark? No because its toxic, we would trip over the toys and probably get bitten by a spider. While its dark though do you see anything wrong with his house?? No because its dark you cannot see anything so you would have no clue about the toys or furniture or bugs. As we move through life in the darkness we trip, stumble, get stung and what about others moving through life with us? same thing they get hurt stumble and get stung. And our thoughts?? We have no clue why but all we know is its not our fault, it was a poor childhood, someone was mean to you, I didn't have as much as some did growing up, I was hurt by my parents, I was hurt by my friend etc etc. While some of our circumstances are not in our control and yes some are worse than others we still cannot blame the way we live/lived on someone else.

Jesus comes in with a light and shines it on the areas that need to be cleaned. Accepting this truth and truly repenting and allowing Jesus to change our dirty heart to a new clean one. Jesus cleans out the old dirty house and makes it a new. Jesus exposes the big furniture in the room and helps us move it out of the way so we can move around without getting hurt or hurting others. But for Jesus to come in with that light that means what? our dirty laundry is exposed. That means we have to deal with the bad choices we have made and the truth about us.

An example: I was rejected by my father when I was younger and he didn't love me the way I needed to be loved. So what did I do? I slept with every guy I could find hoping to feel that love I was missing. I did drugs to numb the pain. I was with women, I did porn, I made money while exposing myself online (online stripper is what they called it then). Did I think any of these things where wrong?? Some I can sadly say yes I knew it was wrong and still did it but I had convinced myself that it was okay to do all of those things. I didn't even really know why I did most of those things, I knew I was running just not sure what I was running from. I hurt every male I came into contact with. I was disconnected and didn't care about anyone else but myself. I liked the older men (looking for that daddy) and treated each one of them like they where garbage. So was my house dirty?? Oh you bet it was no one could come into that place without getting chewed up and spit out. Who was I hurting? Of course myself but we cannot forget each person I came in contact with and lets not forget those that loved me and watched me do this. Most of them still do not know the extent to the things I did.

So I find Jesus and what does he do?? Took that light and showed me the big pieces of furniture sitting around and helped me clean it up. At this point I still did not know why I did any of these things but God brought to light the things that where really big and filthy and dealt with them. Removed them from my life. So this gives me a little wiggle room in my dirty house and I can now was without falling every 2 seconds but its better than before. Is he done? NO WAY! Hes only just begun to clean house. (this was 10 years ago) I didn't really know Jesus at this point, I thought I did but I know now I only knew about him and didnt know him. Many years passed I am now a wife with 3 kids. God gets my attention with a lovely preacher name Joyce Meyer and starts shining some more light. As I get to know him more and more becomes exposed. I get the Holy Spirit and watch out the consuming fire has come to really clean some house. He started showing me what happened and why I did the things I did and then it gets ugly he exposes that I had become the one that hurt me the most. I was doing the same thing to my kids that was done to me. I was grieved, I cried, I was ashamed, I could not believe it. The one who hurt me the most I had become. I confessed this before the Lord pleading for help and you know what he said. "You are forgiven, My grace is enough for you and I can show you how to love."  So that truth SUCKED in every way shape or form, I knew nothing about it and hearing it was one of the worst things ever but if God did not shine his light there and expose the truth about me then I would have hurt my kids the same way I was hurt and they would have gone and done the same things I did.

My children would have had the same issues and same dirty house I had and who knows what would have happened. God shed some light with love and mercy and said lets clean this house up and I will show you how to love so the same damage is not done.

So after all that folks the light is truth about us, and the darkness is ignorance about us. Yes ignorance feels better for the moment but it is TOXIC and kills you and everyone around you.

Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed.


Your deeds will be exposed by the light of God and it HURTS but only for a moment! Gods gentle loving touch comes right in (if you let him) and sets you free and covers you with the grace and mercy given by the blood of Jesus Christ.

but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil.


We love the ignorance because we think we are right, we think we are okay, we think we do not need anyone, we think we are strong, we are full of pride and selfishness, we think its someone elses fault, we think we cannot change, we think we are good most of the time etc etc.

Do not believe the darkness its a LIE!!!! It makes you feel comfortable for a moment but you are toxic on the inside and out. Hurting others and a slave to yourself.

Let the one who saves and shines light set you free!! He wants to! He loves you sooooo much he is knocking on that door hoping you will open it. He is pleading for your life and begging for you to accept his mercy and grace.  He wants to bandage up your wounds and show you how to live with joy and peace. He wants to shower you with love and hold you in his arms and tell you its going to be okay. Your maker loves you soooo much and it hurts him to see you this way.


2 Peter 3:9
The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.


Anyone means you!!!!

Father I pray that anyone who reads this has a revelation of your love and mercy and grace. That no matter what they may have done or are currently doing is not too much to come to you and receive your love. You do not desire anyone to perish and I am truly thankful for your loving, patient, merciful heart toward your children. Jesus I thank you for being the ultimate sacrifice so we can come and get to know the Father intimately and for bandaging up our wounds. You came for the sinner and I pray in Jesus name that anyone reading this right now is hit with the light and throws themselves down at your feet in repentance. And then accepts the loving forgiveness and mercy offered by you for free. You already paid the price so we can be free. Show all who reads this that the light is good and if we repent and receive your mercy we do not have to be ashamed that we are made a new in you. I am ever grateful for your truth and light! Thank you Holy Spirit for guiding me through these hard times of exposure of myself. You always do it little by little and you do it gently, then bind up those wounds and change our hearts more and more. You are the ultimate maid for our dirty hearts and minds and I am thankful for your everlasting grace and love. I love you Lord! in Jesus name Amen!!

Speak of What You know

Doing a bible study this morning and decided to break down a few things in one verse so I figured I would share.

I have been reading in John and breaking all the verses down, Jesus was witnessing to people and I believe how he did it is exactly how he wants us to do it so its important to follow his example.

John 3:11
I tell you the truth, we speak of what we know, and we testify to what we have seen, but still you people do not accept our testimony.

So lets break down in our own words here what Jesus was saying.

1. I tell you the truth - simple one here we should always be speaking the truth when witnessing or speaking to someone about God. There is no need to exaggerate anything in our experiences with God. The truth is enough.

2. we speak of what we know - So I love this one, we only need to speak of what we know to be true, this means it is okay if talking to someone and you do not have the answer to say "I do not know". I think sometimes we feel as Christians we should always have the answers well this clearly tells me that I do not always have the answer. Only speaking of what you know is fine and sometimes I feel like I do not know enough to actually go out and be a witness and that is not true.  If you are speaking to someone who doesn't know Jesus then you know more then them. New Christians like 2 minutes old can be share the good news and think about all the people Jesus healed how they ran off to tell everyone.

3. we testify to what we have seen - Easy one again, its okay to share what you have seen. Jesus showed me the outline of his face one night and boy was I amazed, excited, in awe and speechless. I tell everyone about it and most just think I am crazy but I do not care. I know what I saw and you would be shouting it from the roof tops also if you saw it. So do not be afraid to tell of what you have seen, some people have seen God do some beautiful miracles and I think its important we share them with others. Your personal testimony is important to talk about, a transformation of life is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen so share away about your transformation.

4. but still you people do not accept our testimony - after all you have shared it is still possible that they will not believe you. If they did not believe Jesus here then its safe to assume you will go through the same thing. I know many have thought I was a little crazy but that's okay. I know what I have seen, I know what I know and its not my job to make them believe me.

We are commanded to go out and preach the good news and I know I have made it more difficult than it has to be. I think Jesus makes it simple in this passage when it comes to sharing. Keep it honest, share what you know, share what you have seen.

THE VISION OF THE END William Booth (1829-1912)

He was founder and first general of the Salvation Army. He had a passionate heart of an evangelist, and felt the special vocation of the poor in London. The structures of the British churches have not been able to find a place for this man and his ministry. Together with his wife, William began an intensive campaign aimed at attainment of the poor in London with the Gospel and meet their practical needs. The Salvation Army William Booth was a huge success, and today operates throughout the world. With a lot of prayers, hard work and perseverance watched many thousands of people coming to Christ and strengthened in the faith.


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During one of my last trip I was led to consider the spiritual condition of the crowds that surround me, people who live independently of his eternal vocation in the most open and shameless rebellion against God. I thought about the millions of people around me, treated drunkenness and pleasures, interests and worries, policies and problems, in many cases ongoing in blasphemy and anger. During these considerations, I had a vision.

I saw a dark, stormy ocean. Hung over it, heavy, dark clouds, and from time to time they clear cut the lightning and thunder rolled. When the howling winds blew, the waves rose and foam. In this ocean I saw a lot of human beings in the vortexes sucked and floating, screaming, squeaking, blaspheming and struggling, and each of them was falling more and more. As I cursed and screamed they were once again elevating the surface, they shouted again, and then drowned, would no longer proceed.

I have also seen emerging from this dark, evil mighty ocean rock, whose top reached higher than the dark clouds hanging over the stormy sea. Around the base of the rock, I saw a flat platform and watched the delight of these poor, struggling, drowning the poor escaping from the ocean and climb the platform. I saw that some of those who have already helped to secure these poor creatures that were still in the water, climb a safe place.

Looking at the more I saw a group of those who survived, using ladders, ropes and boats, struggling to pull out of the water yet. There were also those who jumped into the water without paying attention to the consequences, wanting to save the drowning. I was not sure what made me the most joy - a view of poor people climbing the rock and found a safe place or the dedication of those who were fully committed to efforts to free their comrades.

However, surprised me one thing: even though each of which are on the rock has been rescued from the ocean, nearly everyone seemed to forget about the horror of this darkness and danger, which did not concern them any more. What seemed to me both strange and shocking was the fact that these people have not revealed the absolutely no concern for these poor, lost creatures, who struggled and drowned before their eyes, even though many of them were family members of survivors. This lack of concern was certainly not the result of their ignorance, because they once lived in this situation, regularly attending lectures, where he reported the status of these poor drowning creatures.

While on the platform were busy with different performance characteristics. Some days and nights were involved in their interests by making their savings in banks and vaults. Many spent their time admiring the flowers, paint, playing instruments or imposing nice clothes in the hope that they will be admired.

On the platform were some who were mainly food and drink. Others spent the time to quarrel about the drowning people, discussing what will happen to them in the future, while others rejoiced that it fulfilled its duty towards the lost interest by the organization of religious ceremonies.

Some of the crowd who had found a place of refuge, they found the road leading up the cliffs, to a higher platform located above the layer of clouds hanging our ocean. They had a good view from there to the central part of the land, where they hoped to find someday. At this higher platform, they spent time thinking about pleasant things, congratulating each other this luck that they were rescued from the stormy depths, and singing songs about the joy that will inherit when they are taken to the mainland. All this happened while the masses of struggling, screaming people drowned in the dark, choppy water in the eyes of those who are happy sitting and waiting for the day when they leave the rock.

How much I wanted to see crowds of people involved in the rescue of others, instead of that small handful! The few workers that I have seen, it seemed to do little beyond crying and helping people. Gave themselves up without reserve and stubbornly held around begging people for help. However, this was regarded as nonsense by many normal and religious people. After all, they continued to work, giving everything they had to buy a boat, ropes and other equipment are helpful to save the poor drowning people.

And then I saw something miraculous. Suffering, danger and sorrow of these poor, struggling in the dark sea creatures have caused sorrow in heaven God - touched him so much that he sent a wonderful essence to free them. This one came straight from his palace through the dark clouds, straight into the raging sea between the drowning people. He began to rescue them weeping and tears, until the sweat poured down his pain with the blood. When he took the arms of drowning, trying to put them on a rock, still wept and cried out to the survivors - those who have already been helped blood his hands - to help in this difficult, demanding task, which was to rescue their comrades.

The most frightening thought is that those located on the platform, which called, they were so busy with their own affairs and problems, saving money and pleasures, family and religious obligations, or preparing to travel to the center of the land that did not pay attention call this Being, he loved - the one who himself went down to the sea. When you heard the cry of ignoring them completely or just not pay any attention. And in this way more crowds struggled, cried, and sank into darkness.

And then I saw something that gave me even more terrifying than anything he had ever seen. Some of the people on the platform, previously asked by this great Being, to come and help in this difficult task, all the time praying for that someone to come. Some wanted to come and stay with them by giving time and strength to make them happier. Some wanted to come and help them feel more secure on the rock, as it was known that some went so carelessly that they lost the ground under his feet skidded back into the water. These people met, comprised as high as they could and looking towards the mainland, where they thought that there is a great Idea, shouted: "Come to us! Come and help us. " All this time he was at the bottom, between the struggling, splashed creatures. Surrounding them with their arms trying to pull them, looking imploringly, but to no avail for those in the rock. His voice was hoarse from cries of "Come to me! Come and help me! "

Then I realized this vision. It was quite clear. The sea is the ocean of life - the sea of human existence. Lightning sparks of acquiring the truth coming from the throne of God. Thunder is a distant echo of God's wrath. Countless people who tibia and struggled in agony in the choppy waters, were thousands of thousands of poor sinners from every tribe and tongue and nation.

How is the sea was black! And what multitudes of rich and poor, educated and uneducated were in it all so differently comprehending the circumstances and conditions, but so alike in one thing - all sinners before God, held back by their iniquity, fascinated by some idol, the slaves evil concupiscence, deceived by a cruel enemy of the infinite abyss!

They were similar not only in his iniquity, but if you have not been rescued, including those that drowned going down to the same place. This great, protects the rock represented Calvary, and people are located on it were rescued. The manner in which its energy benefits, gifts and time, showed activities of those who claim to be saved, redeemed from sin and hell, to be followers of Jesus Christ.

This handful of passionate, determined to rescue the soldiers of salvation. Being powerful is the Son of God, the same yesterday, today and forever, which is still struggling to save the dying multitudes from the bottom of this terrible destruction. His voice is still heard over the music, machinery, and rebellion of life, he urges survivors to come and help him save the world.

My friends, you are rescued from the water, you are on a rock. He is in the dark sea calling on you to come help him. Did you go? Raging sea life filled with endangered souls move about to the place where you stand.

Jesus Christ, the Son of God, is in the midst of this decaying crowd, struggling to help them. He calls you, you jumped into the sea, you immediately went over to his side, helping him in his holy struggle. Can you jump? Did you go and give in totally to him? Are you who still linger on the shore, put away his pride, concern for the opinion, the love of all that simple, and other selfish pleasure, where you been so long attached and you run to save the endangered multitude of souls?


Is it a sea swirl does not look scary? Of course, yes. There is no doubt that this act will be for you and for others taking the challenge, marked difficulties, pain and suffering. For some this may mean even more - death. He who calls you into the sea, however, knows what it will mean, and still calls and invites you and me to go.

Satisfaction long enough to secure religion. We already had pleasant feelings, pleasant songs, pleasant meetings and fun ideas. There have been a lot of luck, much clapping of hands and a lot of heaven on earth. And now we go to God and tell Him that we are prepared to, if necessary, to turn away from it all and that we want to spend the rest of my life dealing with the multitude of endangered, regardless of price.


Going down to the dying - this is our calling. Our happiness at this time will consist of share in suffering, our facility will be sharing their pain, wearing the crown of our cross, and our skies will arrive in the same gates of hell to save them.

Did you go?

Entrusting ourselves to Others

Studying this morning I came across a good piece of scripture.

But Jesus did not entrust himself to them, for he knew all men. John 2:24

Some definitions

Entrust: to confide, to deposit for responsibility
Greek paratitheni: to place beside or set before, a banking term "to deposit for safekeeping"
Hebrew להפקיד : deposit

This made me ask How much of ourselves do we give others for safe keeping? How much do you give someone else responsibility for?

Some things you make others responsible for:

1. happiness
2. peace
3. fun

So I would have to say I am guilty of giving someone else the responsibility of keeping me happy. Have you ever done that?

What about peace?? Have you ever said I would have peace if only the kids would listen?

What about fun?? I can't have fun unless your having fun?

A big one I hear all the time is, if moms not happy then no one is happy! How dumb is that??

Those are just a few things that came to mind that I know I have said or ways I have felt. But is it really fair to put that responsibilty on someone else???

No its not and Jesus tells us he did not entrust himself to man at all. Why?? well simply put "he knew all men". So he is talking about the heart of man and whats in our hearts?? Some basic characteristics we all suffer from:

- prideful
- shelfish

so those are 2 that are huge and tells me I do not want to be entrusting any person with me. And is it really fair to entrust someone else with your happiness or peace?? Not really because it is impossible for them to fulfill that.

So thinking about this is there someone in your life you need to release from this responsiblity??

Only God knows what truly makes you happy so we need to be entrusting ourselves to him completely. Not only can man not please us but I think we are doing an injustice to them by giving them the responsibility for things they cannot even control.

Father, I think you for wisdom and knowledge and for Jesus giving us the example of how we should live. Giving us the example of how we can truly be happy, have peace or even have fun. You want only the best for us and I pray anyone who reads this will entrust themselves to you. For you knew the heart of man and it cannot please us. I ask for forgiveness Father for giving others the responsibilty and it was not fair of me to do that. I love you Lord and am thankfully for the revelation of my responsibilites. Thank you Lord! In Jesus name Amen!

Getting Stuck

Have you ever felt stuck? Have you ever felt like God was speaking to you and revelation was coming but then it stopped? Like everything you hear was going over your head? Almost like he stopped speaking to you? I know I have and I am pretty sure its common on the adventure we have with God. Growing up isn't always easy but as I come to know God more and more, I become more responsible for the revelation he has given me.

Knowledge = Responsibility

Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. - James 1:22


I don't know about you but I know he corrected me for this one. I was clearly in the scripture that if I had an issue with a brother to leave my offering and go reconcile the situation.

Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you,leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift. Matthew 5:23-24


Whats interesting is with this scripture there is really no hidden meaning, I think of the parables Jesus spoke in but this is not a parable this is a commandment. There are no options here he says to leave the offering there and take care the situation before coming back.

I read that many times and at that time there was conflict with my sister and I had not spoken to them in 2 years. So first time I read this I knew what God was saying, I really understood, I mean how can you not? I do not think it gets easier to understand than that. So what happened? Now I did not know this at the time, or maybe I did but cannot remember it but I reasoned my way out of it. I actually made excuses as to why its not the right time to make peace with her. "I was not grown up enough in Christ", "There just isn't enough light in me for God to use it" etc etc. I was telling people those things for months!! Oh boy how I was deceiving myself.

One day I was hanging out with the Lord and doing my studies and he told me Jennifer if you do not do the basics of my word then it will hinder our relationship. He said that and the switch goes off, I knew what he was talking about instantly, it didn't matter what lies I had been telling myself I knew what i needed to do. I was really believing the crap I was telling myself and it was like in one ear and out the other when he spoke to me. Now realizing this of course I had to obey and be the peacemaker, humble myself to apologize even if I didn't feel I did anything wrong and not expecting anything from their side.

So I think it took a week or so (maybe longer) but I did it FINALLY! Sent an apology letter and said okay Lord I am sowing that seed and one day it will reap a harvest. So this plant grew faster than expected, took maybe 30 minutes and I got a response. So the harvest was yes lets talk this out. So I wasn't expecting that and was honestly hoping that was going to be a slow moving harvest LOL. To my surprise it was quick, I guess it was time to humble myself. I hear the Spirit say either you humble yourself or I will do it for you. So now I have 2 choices and honestly door number 2 did not sound that great. I was going to do what I was told.

Everything turns out great, God really gave me the strength to do what was necessary and he could not start to repair some relationships. I understood what the pain of dying to self was because I felt it deep within my gut for hours but once it was over I felt God release me from something. Removed a chain and I was fine.

I realized that humbling myself and being the peacemaker allowed God to heal me. I still remember him saying the more you say I am sorry the easier it gets and it was true. Freedom in being the first to say that.

Was it worth dying for?? Yes it was. God knows what we need to do to be happy. His word commands us to do certain things for a reason. I am pretty sure God didn't leave his word for himself so its important we do not just merely listen but do what it says. After all that I am now free, healed, not angry or living with unforgiveness in my heart.

One last thing I want to point out that Jesus said

I have spoken to you of earthly things and you do not believe; how then will you believe if I speak of heavenly things? - John 3:12


If we cannot do the simple things in His word how can he expect us to do the heavenly things? I think our purpose is much more than the basics, and if he cant trust us with the basics how can he trust us with more?

You Could Not Handle It Right Now

A little note about me I am married to a non-believer so I am sure you can figure this house gets interesting sometimes. God told me long ago I needed to learn to keep my mouth shut, which I must say is not that easy.The scripture I actually keep on my desk is

Set a guard over my mouth O'Lord; Keep watch over the door of my lips. - Psalm 141:3

I also do a lot of confessing and one of my favorites is "I do not always have to be right" and "I do not always have to have the last word". I truly believe God has been helping me with this, even though its not easy and I am definitely not always successfull, I have seen progress! Thank you Lord for changing my heart!

Tonight I got to exercise it, now I did not catch it right away but about a second into it I got it and mouth was shut, told myself "I do not always have to be right" and the sick feelings started to subside. Hallelujah! thank you Jesus, I didnt totally blow this one. So God promised me years ago of his salvation and I have held onto that ever since. As I get closer to God I see the enemy taking him further away. I start to study my bible and he will do something completely opposite, I listen to my sermons he listens to his of course they are opposite. Interesting how the enemy is taking him in the opposite direction but that only means the greater the miracle my God has to perform and I worship the Almighty Jehovah and with Jesus all things are possible so its easy for Him.

So I thought tonight well Lord maybe this year is the year, I can believe it will happen sooner than later. Now I usually don't pray for it I just thank the Lord and it will happen in the right time. So I am thinking yes this is the year and I cannot wait, I will believe for that Lord and I hear the Lord say "You couldnt handle it right now". Now that would not be the first time I feel the Spirit telling me this. I understand most of the authority (not all of it but most) and submitting to your husband. Right now we have complete role reversal in the house and I know I have spirtiual authority but I also know I have a very hard time now even listening or humbling myself, can you imagine when he starts knowing God? I myself know me and we love to take that authority when we learn about it. Just think about it, God says they have to listen to me because I am the head of the house. Serious I have had those thoughts in my head, silly as they are I know what its like to be immature in God and I can admit right here and now I have thought that way. God gave me a beautiful word and I took it and turned it into something selfish. No wonder we look like our enemy sometimes because he was just as selfish.

Anyway I dont feel that way now but it made me think about God's timing and how perfect it is. I believe its not only perfect for that specific person but I also think its perfect for all those around them. If you think about it, it's a lot of work dealing with me but can you imagine 2 people working out their salvation at the same time and at the same level?? I can see how it could be difficult with 2 snot nosed little Christians running around. Not that I wouldn't prefer it but I do believe when it happens it will be perfect for everybody in our house. Until then I hold onto that perfect promist God made me and I will let him use all of this to sharpen and change me. Hey you never know that could be the key to winning him over, a nice loving and submissive wife. That in itself is a miracle but I have the perfect God to do it!

For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife, and the unbelieving wife has been sanctified through her believing husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy. - 1 Corinthians 7:14

I want to leave any person who is married to an unbeliever with this that God spoke to me "You should be honored that God trusted you enough with the unbeliever in hopes that we could be used to win them over to Christ".It's a big job but if you let God just take control the situation can be used to sharpen you and really show you how to love them unconditionally.

Thank you Father for trusting me enough with someone you love so dearly. I ask that anyone who read this blog post and find themself in a similar situation find encouragement that you are the God of Gods, King of Kings and Lord of Lords. That all things are possible for you no matter how dark it may seem. I ask Lord that you speak a promise of salvation for all who read this and show them they are not alone. I love you Father for everything you have done for me and I know and trust that when the day of salvation comes to the non-believers that its the perfect timing for everyone! I love you God more than life itself! Thank you for your love and mercy and I ask you show us how to share that same love and mercy to all we come across. I love you Lord! In Jesus name Amen!

Shekinah Glory Come!

Great song I wanted to share with you!

A Must Read Counterfeit Conversion by Winkie Pratney

This is a must read, I got through part one and the difference between me now and 2 years ago is in here. I didnt know God's love or even really know him just thought I did. I knew about Jesus but didnt know him and while I am of course still learning I am officially not counterfeit anymore! Thank you Lord for your light and really lifting the veil from my eyes.

Click the link below to read!
http://moh.org/WinkPrat/DTM/CounterfeitConversionPart1.htm

God is Love

Hey everyone! Been a few days so I thought I would stop and share some thoughts. I was listening to Winkie Pratney yesterday and a few things just stuck out of my mind. We know God loves us but do we really know how much God loves us?? I think we say yes God loves me but do we really understand??

I know for me it took me a bit but I actually had to accept his love, I didn't think I was worth loving, I would say God loves me but did I really believe it? Not really. Not because he didn't love me but because I couldn't believe anyone could love me in such a way (a lie from the devil). As I have gone on this journey I have discovered his love around every corner.

Winkie was talking about the earth and how it was created and how God spoke everything into existence but why did it take 6 days?? Surely God could have winked his eye, said a few things and it would all be in place. He did that because he loves us so much and he was thinking about us that whole time he was creating it. He thought of every color, every body of water where it began, where it ended, he decided what color the trees would be and what time of the year they would fall. Those are just a few points but think about if it took God 6 days to make all this then he really put his all into it. Science today actually shows how perfect it actually is, did you know if we where any closer to the sun we couldn't live? He picked the perfect place for everything!!! And if he spent 6 days making this beautiful earth and universe with all that thought put into it, how much thought do you think he put into you??

Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations. - Jeremiah 1:5


God thought about you before Moses walked the earth, God thought about you before Abraham, you where the apple of his eye as He was speaking the world into existence. He knew your hair color, eye color, personality EVERYTHING! What I think is even cooler is our finger prints they are all different, there is no 2 finger prints that are the same. Now what about Jesus?? Jesus was with Him when it was all created and since God already knew what Adam and Eve would do he had already set things in place for the Messiah to come.


You are worthy, our Lord & God, to receive glory & honor & power, for you created all things, & by your will they were created & have their being. - Revelation 4:11


he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure & will ... And he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ - Ephesians 1:5,9


God created us for His pleasure! God is pleased with us, not pleased with our sin or things we do but he is pleased with us because of Jesus. God is 100% all LOVE all the time! I have heard many say God gave me this disease to teach me something, God did this to show me that etc etc. No he didn't. Do not forget what happened!

How you have fallen from heaven, O morning star, son of the dawn! You have been cast down to the earth, you who once laid low the nations! You said in your heart, I will ascend to heaven; I will raise my throne above the stars of God; I will sit enthroned on the mount of assembly, on the utmost heights of the sacred mountain. I will ascend above the tops of the clouds; I will make myself like the Most High. But you are brought down to the grave, to the depths of the pit. - Isaiah 14:12-16


God cast satan out of heaven and he is roaming around on the earth. God gave man dominion but man gave the dominion over to satan. So satan has dominion over the earth. Do not forget who has dominion. So Jesus was sent to take back dominion, he took back the keys and the authority but you need to use it. If you don't have Jesus then you have no authority, once you get Jesus you get his authority but then you need to learn what it is, how you use it etc etc. Jesus came to fulfill the law but there are still spiritual laws that exist and this is one of them. Man gave dominion to the evil one, man loved the darkness more than light. Evil is around every corner. If you do not know Him then you do not know what you have and how much he loves you.

This is a new thing for me and I have been seeking God diligently for 2 years now every day. I thought God allowed people to get cancer and maybe he would heal them. Jesus NEVER refused to heal anyone, they would say if you are willing and he would say I am willing. Jesus said in the perfect prayer on earth as it is in heaven. Who is sick in heaven? For God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son. If he gave his son to be brutally beaten and murdered for our sins but is giving people cancer?? That doesn't make sense. That sounds like something us humans would do and God is not human he is God.

God loves us soooo much we cannot grasp it! Love when Winkie says "Do you even realize how much God has to dummy things down when he talks to us so we understand?" We think we know better than God. We place anger and blame on God when its the enemy who is doing it. Think we fell into that trap that was laid for us and then I am mad at God for letting it happen. How convenient we get to blame someone else for our choices? Sound familiar? God it was that women you gave me. Let go of everything you think you know about God's love and open your heart for him to show you how he really feels about you. He love us sooooo much its not even funny! He thinks of us daily and he has been since before we where born. God can do anything he wants but he chooses to watch over you, guide you, correct you and clean up after you when you make a mistake.

Sounds a like a good Father to me! :)

Thank you Lord for your everlasting love! The love you showed the Israelites even though they complained all the time, the love you showed by sending your precious Son to the cross for us while we where still sinners, the love you showed by sending your Holy Spirit to live within us so we can have the power and authority to walk in righteousness, the love you show when we can come to know you and talk with you face to face, the love you show by NEVER leaving us or forsaking us and of course the man other occasions we see written in your word. God you are sooooo awesome! Forgive me father for not seeing that before and thank you for the revelation of your love and I ask that everyone who reads this can get revelation also about your love and it draws them into a beautiful encounter with you Lord! I ask this in Jesus name Amen!

You Better Get Used to it

I just love the Lord so much and I got even more confirmation today that the church I have changed to is the place I am suppose to be. Everything that was said on Sunday is all coming to pass and I am now going through everything the Lord was talking about. The prophets words did not fall to the ground. I knew it was God using him but I crack up when things happen and its totally the same thing you just got revelation about at church. Cool to see that happen, that is what church is about.

Tonight I shared some of my experiences with God and wanted to point some things out about prayer and Gods word, important things I never knew about until years later in my walk with God that was basically sitting with my flesh and not even including God. Come people you know what I am talking about! I know some of you have done the same thing LOL I am not the only weird one.

Some loved the stories and some did not. I was totally rejected. Almost instantly I heard God say "Be Quiet". I kept my mouth shut but it hurt, physically hurt. I just smiled and kept my mouth shut, funny enough more questions kept coming from the to that accepted what was said and someone even said I should be a teacher for the younger kids. I loved hearing that it was cool to see a gift of teaching that God gave me just come through and I said yes kids would be awesome but I am also here for the adults. (I wanted to mention I am only 30 and the youngest one there, former drug addict, porn etc you get the drift the unlikely candidate to be teaching right?)

Someone mentioned the next big wave God is doing will be from unlikely character, LOL I laughed and said yep and part of that army is me, the most unlikely of all. Now here is where the progress is, it did hurt but it wasn't as bad as last time. Muscle is getting stronger to withstand it.

I was on my way home praising God when I heard, Blessed are you when people hate you, when they exclude you and insult you and reject your name as evil, because of the Son of Man. - Luke 6:22


So get this I am still sad of course who wants to feel like that but I had a smile on my face. Blessed was me, I had been insulted from Jesus name, I only told the truth and I was not rude, talked about my personal experiences and honestly i was calm when usually I get so excited so this was God all the way baby! I told God, this sucks, I am happy because some received but was sad the others didn't and God said "You better get used to it".


Then God mentioned Luke 4:24 
"I tell you the truth," he continued, "no prophet is accepted in his hometown."


(I knew instantly why I was moved further away to go to church the light balb went off)


I thought of Jesus just then and all he went through just so i could be accepted and I shouted I am accepted and loved by God. I repented for anytime I may have done that or made someone feel like that (because I am sure I have) and I asked that God not hold it against them but grant them revelation and work with them to see the truth.

I thanked God for helping me keep my mouth shut because thats not my strong thing and getting me through it. I guess this seed is being watered and tended to and one day I will see a huge breakthrough and harvest in the area of man pleasing and rejection.

Lord I thank you for being rejected so we could be accepted by you. Lord thank you for giving me the strength to get through it with the least amount of wounds, thank you for helping me not get angry and I ask you change my heart to have compassion for those who reject me because they are really rejecting you. I ask that anyone who read this Lord feel comforted that they are not the only one who goes through it and I ask that anyone who has been rejected for your names sake be comforted because your acceptance and love is enough. Your grace is sufficient for us. I love you Lord soooo much! Give all who read this a hunger for you and your word. in Jesus name Amen!!

It's Important to Give but Do Not Forget to Receive

So this past Sunday I decide to go to church again at His Way in Orange County. While many said God is practical and they wouldn't do it, I happened to feel God would want me to go and drive to get what I needed. I instantly thought I drive an hour to go to my favorite restaurant, I drive 2 hours to meet with clients, I drive an hour to see my family, so why wouldn't I drive to be in the presence of God?

I find it interesting how much we will do for ourselves but how little we will do for Him, we do not like to be inconvenienced. Anyway I go back down there and boy was it worth it. It was a little different than last time, God's presence came in a different way. (God has been showing me all the ways he manifests Himself so I can learn to recognize it) Praise and worship as usual but this time the air wasn't getting thick, I wasn't feeling the same thing and I thought what is going on? God this is weird. Funny how we think he will always come the same way. Pastor Rob comes up grabs the microphone and says "Did you feel the presence of God just come into the room?" I am like ummm no, then a second later I burst into tears and uncontrollably I start sobbing. Now it was that pain staking sob (you know what I am talking about?) its not something that happens often and definitely not to me, I am one who has a hard time showing emotion in tears let alone I would NEVER do it in public. Rob says "God wants to take over is that okay?" of course we say yes, about that time I noticed others had tears in their eyes, well I guess I did feel when God came in the room but he did not come in the same way as last time.

Rob goes on to talk about the bondage of "Rejection" and how many things we suffer from are because we do not want to be rejected. (Oh probably should mention the girl who sings was saying God was showing her BIG oak trees that where in front of us and God could not get to us so he was going to chop them down with His sword) Me personally it hit hard because I have a problem with "man pleasing spirit and the fear of man". The Lord showed me a few days early that I shut down when certain non believers come into the room and I was devastated and instantly bound up the man pleasing spirit and loosed from heaven the God pleasing spirit in Jesus name. So the root of it all was something I didn't even think about which was rejection. So after all this talk about everything I needed to hear and so did many others in the room, still I was crying but it was time for an altar. Rob said God wanted him to have one so we can give him our fear of rejection and he could in turn give us the acceptance and love from Jesus.

To the praise of the glory of His grace wherein He has made us accepted in the beloved - Ephesians 1:6 KJV

God was telling me I needed to accept his love and acceptance in Jesus name. Jesus was rejected so I could be accepted by God and once I received it I would no longer need to please man but in turn would please God.

Im up front still sobbing away holding my arms up praising His name when I stopped crying, FINALLY! God gave me that seed of acceptance and His love. Up front was the offering bucket and I of course am about to give it all when I hear God say "I know you are willing give but it's time for you to receive".  Finally the title of my blog post makes sense right?? LOL the grand finally of this all is in me seeking and seeking God driving 1 1/12 hrs, making the effort for Him and in turn He really wanted to give something to me.

How awesome is God? We seek and seek Him at any cost and He pays me back with a loosing of a chain? Is it worth it? YES YES YES! I made the right decision and in turn I learned a valuable lesson.

We need to make sure that we are not only giving our all to God but we stop and receive what God wants to give to us. God wants us to have complete freedom in Jesus but I never stopped to receive, I was too busy doing, doing, doing and more doing which there was nothing wrong with it but what happens when you have nothing else to give??? Who is going to refuel you?? Who has unlimited resources?? God!!!! It reminded me of a sermon by Joyce Meyer where she said, God will not require you to give something out until you have received it yourself. You cannot give mercy if you have not received it from God, you cannot give love if you have not received it from God, you cannot give compassion until you get compassion from God and not only receiving it but accepting it. It's all there, God gives it to us in Jesus name for FREE! Have you taken the opportunity to ask God what you have not received or accepted yet? Have you stopped giving for just a moment to see what God wants to give you??

If not then I suggest you do that. If you are like me and just want to help everyone for Jesus sake that's GREAT! I fall more and more in love with God each day and in turn want to do more and more for His kingdom and purpose but you also need to relax and receive from Him. He has many bondage's to break and more and more freedoms to give but if we do not stop for a moment we may miss them or prolong them. Everything in His perfect timing Right!!

Father God I thank you for all the freedoms you give in Jesus name. I thank you Jesus for being rejected so I can be accepted and loved by you. I ask that you make everyone who reads this more aware of not only giving but receiving. A healthy balance of both so you can use each day for your purpose. I love you and thank you for your sacrifice and the cost you paid so I can gain freedom. I love you Lord more and more each day! In Jesus name Amen!